Nocturnal Awakenings Part One

Today I write to all those who have ever had a dream that seemed poignant, and yet couldnt make any sense of it at all. I had one of these dreams last night. Allow me to verse it for you.

It starts out like any other dream, which is to say that it never really starts at all. I am late for my shift at the restaurant I used to work at and, of course, everything is different. The people, the layout, the floorplan, even the clientelle. Some faces are familiar and stand out in the background noise of the evolving sphere of my subconcious (perhaps the most interesting part was that all my interactions were with people or energies I dont even know).
So it went that I come in late and the staff are already serving guests. I stand around for a while like a pickled gherkin in a creamy butternut soup  - completely out of place. I don't know what systems they are running nor how or where to begin helping. I find myself in the bar section and pick up a tray, which promptly tips over, and off slides a glass of red tomato juice lookng stuff. Smash! The manager gives me a look of disdain and I am handed another glass with the same stuff. I am now a bit shaken and not feeling confident. So I say, "I think I've forgotten how to be a waiter."

Next I'm on the patio which is well lighted, while the rest of the surrounds is completely blacked out. No night sky, no secondary light source, just blackness all around the patio. I'm standing next to this somewhat-bigger-than-it-should-be bonsai which has no greenery on it. On one of the branches I see a movement and I take a closer look. It is a mushroom growing up side down and twitching into different positions as it has growth spurts. I then catch a glimpse of something far more exuberant. Its a leopard/lynx creature leaping from branch to branch, yet never actually touching the tree itself. The reason I use "creature" is because it's coat is white with purple stripes such as a tiger would have. The stripes themselves are changing colour as I watch it. I am amazed and of course I want others to see this fantastic discovery I have just made. As I call a girl (whom I met briefly last night in reality and didnt even have a conversation with) over to confirm that I am seeing this, the creature begins to fade. As she approaches and looks for what I am excited about, only its head is left, nestled under one of the bigger branches. She looks directly at it as it dissapears,
"What? Theres nothing there."

I look at her in pure astonishment as it dawns on me that I have had a vision. In my unaltered, natural state I have seen one of my totem animals. I embrace this woman and am elated beyond physical joy. I say something like, "I've had my first vision quest!" I look at her and want to smother her in kisses and shower her with appreciation for sharing such a pivotal moment in my life. She senses my wanting to love her and doesnt reciprocate. She sees the fire in my eyes and gives me the knowing look of, "If we are going to do this, we are only doing it once." I leave that space because just once isnt enough for me.

I am now in a hidden room within the restaurant walls and there are two woman, myself and two other men. The men I dont know but represent social familiarity. I know the one woman and she wants me to choose her. The middle of the room is painted into four squares of different colours. As best as I can recall, red and yellow or orange. I am in the red square and the unknown woman faces me in the yellow/orange square. The one man and the woman, who likes me, face each other. The second man is standing outside the squares and he turns on the music. We all start dancing in our squares. The dance turns sexy and I choose the unknown woman by stepping into her yellow/orange square. Being the first to do this, the other two stop dancing and move off the squares. The girl who likes me looks at me with longing and dissapointment, while the man stares at me with jealousy and anger. He must like her, but I dont care, I chose her and he didnt take his opportuntiy. I end up on the floor with the unknown girl and we have very acrobatic sex while the other three watch. She enjoys herself but I can feel she wants to be with the other man, so it doesnt last long.

New situation and everyone is outside, close to the dusty car park. I see the window of the "game" room flashing with dimly lit red lights. We (a number of familiars but none of the previous energies) are chatting outside and having smoke. This is where it all fades and the clarity of situations and images become muddled.

I finish here and now. Part Two will be the insights I have recieved through this dream.